Time for Ten things I've learned this week..

Ten Things I've learned this week....

1) As much as I complain about the heat, well, whine about the heat...I love the sunshine and being warm. I'm seriously considering moving someplace with more sun and heat. Seriously. Well, not really, but a girl can dream. I need to stop whining and just accept it. Embrace this new me! The one that always hated the heat. Yeah...whatever.

2) My learning curve when it comes to blogging is steep. STEEP! I tell ya.

3) I love to read. But, if the book doesn't have a good flow to the sentences, no matter how good it is, I'll drop it like a hot rock. It's too time consuming to keep going back, rereading, trying to figure out what the person is trying to get across. I find it mostly when the character in the book has poor grammar and the book is full of the character's thoughts and interactions. Although, I understand trying to give the character life, it's just too hard to get a flow. Before, I would struggle to finish it. Now? Too many good books out there and I don't feel guilty at all letting one go for the sake of the pleasure to read. This happened this week. Kinda disappointing.

4) This is my new favorite cake. Forever and ever..amen.  Strawberry JELL-O Poke Cake  Made this for the 4th of July and oh. my. word. Pure Pleasure. The whipped topping makes it...oh! and the sprinkles. Love me some sprinkles. Making it again tonight for my son's third Birthday party this week. Hey, he's 13!  Three's a good number.

5) Caffeine withdrawal S.U.C.K.S.  UGH!

6)Telling my son to go read a book, makes him NOT want to go read a book. Don't get it. Summers I loved to read! Maybe someday he will too. Hopefully. If x box falls off the face of the earth.

7) I'm learning to "Eat to live, not live to Eat" this week. It's hard for me because I'm an emotional eater and have dealt with eating disorders since I was around 13. Sometimes I hate food. It's not the food's fault though. Food is not the problem. Food is good! I love to cook and bake! It's not about the food. *sigh* This has always been a private thing that I've struggled with. I hope to be more open about it in the future as I've always believed that some secrets can destroy you. If you shed light on it, it's power is lost. The grip loosens. Someday.

8) Getting to know my camera is actually pretty fun! I still haven't figured out how to take a picture and make the edges blurry. App for that? I don't know, but I'll figure it out. I hope.

9) I got my hair cut short a couple of weeks ago and I LOVE IT! I love short hair and can't understand for the life of me why I try and grow it out. My hubs loves it too!

10) The big thing I'm learning this week is to love myself. Accept myself. Quirks and all.  I'm trying to stop (this is all my own doing) forming to whatever people want me to be so they'll like me. I constantly compromise myself. My son asked me the other day, "Why does your voice change when you talk to people? Your voice gets higher pitched and sweet like." Why DO I do that? It's like I'm trying to hide who I really am.  I'm quirky and odd, horribly insecure and I say really dumb things but I need that to be OK. For me.
I've also learned in loving or just liking myself that it takes more courage to be nice and kind to someone in the midst of hostility and rudeness than to be nasty back. Being nasty is easy. Eye for an eye and all. But, being kind in place of acting rude and hostile takes courage, bravery and forgiveness. That's who I want to be....kind, courageous, brave and forgiving.  So...I'm consciously putting those things out there. At least, I'm trying too. I am human after all and an eyeroll at the moron who drives like a freak, doesn't hurt anyone. I don't think.